Andy Richter had a short interview on Day 6 on CBC, and something he said really stuck with me. He was asked about his experience on Dancing with the Stars, as a comedian, and as an older guy (59), and about being a fan favourite. He talked about the transformation of his mindset and of his reality. Specifically, before accepting to join DWTS he says something along the lines of:
I had started to accept my limitations, more than the possibilities.
I think that's a quote that speaks a lot to me these days. The last few weeks, I've been thinking about what's been holding me back, and these days it feels like waiting for my incisional hernia surgery has been a big wall for me. I'm worried when exercising. I'm worried about hurting myself more or making it worse. I'm worried about how long I'm going to have to wait. I'm worried if it gets too bad, they won't operate. I'm anxious about it. I want a date. I want to know it's going to happen.
Then, in talking with a friend bout 2026 and how it feels like it's going to be a big year, I thought about how nice it would be to have the surgery over and done with and how I'll then be able to focus on healing. I won't be in this purgatory or waiting to be cut open again.
It is now relatively certain that I will have a new job in January 2026. It will either be a promotion I interviewed for this past week, or it will be an at-level change to a Project Management team since my current role and team are being dissolved.
This friend, energized by changes in her own life, and with a focus on human design, astrology, and various other woo-woo adjacent lenses, got me thinking about what positive changes could come in 2026.
I am so seldom positive. Feeling hope or excitement is so rare for me; it felt both unusual and novel. Thinking of my life in terms of what's possible is just alien to me. I feel so blocked from it.
But sometimes I have to remind myself that things are possible.
Yes, I almost died in 2022. But I didn't. I have been healing and just surviving, and just trying to figure out what my life and limitations are, but I am, in fact, still alive.
And as someone who is still alive, I can have goals and desires.
I did not die in 2022. I have to keep reminding myself of that.
