It's been a slog lately. Things at work aren't great (budget cuts, re-orgs, and layoffs,) and it's an ongoing purgatory of "we don't know yet" and "we'll have answers soon." When this goes on for months, it. gets hard to be patient. I was told I would have a new job at the start of November, and we're now a weekend away from December.
Combine that with November dark, short days, and my stress about my upcoming surgery (which also has no set date,) and I'm not the best. I can feel the tension in my neck and shoulders. I'm always exhausted, and I just feel perpetually stuck and frustrated.
Work has been a focus on delivering a specific project by a recent date, and now that that's behind me, there's little to no work or clarity.
The upside of this is that I did bite the bullet last year and get myself a laptop, hence my ability to write on blogger. . . Hi, hello.
I have been able to design my holiday card for the year and do a few little things for myself, all because I now have a laptop.
I've written some essays, and occasionally send them to some writing magazines and stuff, so the laptop has allowed me to work on personal stuff when work work is slow, or I'm waiting for X Y Z.
I'm going to try and start writing more here and get the juices going.
Over the last year, I've started going to the gym 2-3 times a week in preparation for surgery and to just get my body moving. My goal was to create the habit.
Over the next year, I'd like to get back into reading. I used to read 1-2 books a month, and I've been on the same book for a year now, All Fours by Miranda July.
I just spend entirely too much time doomscrolling on my phone - something I'll have to make an effort about. It's just a massive waste of time and mental energy.
